Isnin, 5 Disember 2011

Rindu sahabat lama "Jemy"

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :)
i have a special entry today, just want to tell about my longing for old friends..
Bee di besarkan di kampung penambang, before pindah panji.. Masa kecik - kecik bee selalu kawan ngn maksu and cousin - cousin sahaja, boleh cakap tak ade kawan sampai lah ade sorang perempuan  ni tinggal berhampiran rumah bee. Name dye "Jemy" or Nur Jamilah Mohamad Danyan. She was the first friend. Kami rapat sejak umur 5 tahun, sekolah tadika sekali. Bermain sekali, selalu main masak - masak and "Lompat Tali" hehe biasa lah zaman kanak - kanak riang =,=
Bila kami masuk darjah satu, kami berpisah time sekolah. Dye bersekolah di Sk penambang dan bee pula mama hantar sekolah agama sri annur. Kenapa Jemy tak skolah dengan bee? Ada dua sebab, sebab yang pertama adalah sekolah sri annur ni sekolah swasta. Familys jemy bukan datang dari orang yg senang dan bukan bermakna bee ni dtg org kaya cuma family bee lebih sedikit senang dari family jemy. Sebab yg kedua adalah dye tak ade transport, sebab parents dye berniaga dekat terengganu hanya balik rumah jumaat sabtu. Jemy tinggal ngn kakak dye yg tak pandai bawak motor and driver kereta. Dye ke sekolah pun jalan kaki, sekolah Sk penambang dekat ngn rumah kami. Itulah sebabnya, tapi time habis waktu sekolah kami rapat macam biasa. Sampai darjah 6 kami terpisah sebab family bee pindah rumah. Seriously bee and jemy sangat sedih bcoz that time belum guna telefon, belum ada facebook and etc.. Setiap 3 hari sekali bee akan mintak mama hantar pergi penambang, lagipn cousin bee still ramai dekat sana.. Time tula, bee curi masa jumpa jemy.. Banyak kenangan manis kami bersama.. Bila naik form1 juga kami berpisah, dye ke sekolah arab badang. Bee ke sekolah maahad pengajian islam. Bee sekolah MPI sebab dekat ngn rumah bee panji. Dye plak ke sekolah arab badang sbb sekolah tu paling dekat ngn rumah dye. Dye ke sekolah naik basikal. Time tu telefon takde so bee memang takde langsung gambar jemy.. Dye seorang sahabat yg sangat baik, sangat penyayang.. Sahabat yg sukar di cari, sahabat yang tiada galang ganti.. Dye sangat sayang pada haiwan, terutama kucing dye. Kucing dye bee yg bagi nama. Nama kucing tu gemol, kenapa gemol? Sebab bee suka crita putih animasi, kucing dye pn nama gemol. Okay back to story tadi, Bila dah naik form1 kami dah tak rapat sebab macam dah buat hal masing - masing, lagipun sebab dah jarang balik penambang. 5 bulan pun belum tentu lagi pergi ke tak. So kira dah buat haluan masing - masing. I think sejak form1 tu baru sekali bee jumpa dye. Time tu dah nk masuk 8 bulan kot menjadi anak gadis yg berusia 13 tahun. Tupp tuppp masa bee balik dari sekolah tu, mama bgtahu jemy masuk wad icu, she coma.. Bee sangat terkejut, bertubi - tubi bee tanya jemy kenapa??? Mama said time tu dye dalam dewan exam, tiba - tiba dye rebah sbb dye lelah, dye sesak nafas then ambulans klinik desa barang bawak pergi hospital besar. Memang dye dah koma. Bee taw dye memang ada asma tapi tak sangka seteruk tu. Allah je yg tahu perasaan bee. Kenapa dalam sekelip mata. Bee pergi hospital, bee masuk dalam icu bee borak ngn dye. Umpama bee borak ngn anak patung. Langsung tiada respons. Last sebelum bee keluar bee cakap saya rindu awak jemy. Tiba-tiba air mata dye mengalir. Alhamdulillah dye boleh dengar bee walaupun dye tak boleh tengok bee. Bila dah ada dekat luar wad, kakak jemy bgtahu jemy sangat sedih bila bee pindah. Rasa bersalah bertandang. Bee menyesal sbb tinggal sahabat baik bee. Hampir 2 minggu koma, doktor cakap dye akan macam tu sampai bila - bila.. Sebab otak dye dah mati. Dye takkan bangun lagi, hidup dye 100% pakai bantuan pernafasan.. Cuma familys dye belum boleh terima kenyataan so dyorang belum bersedia untuk buang mesin bantuan tersebut. Bila keadaan dye semakin nazak, finally familys dye decide untuk buang mesin bantuan tu, Selepas je buang serta merta dye sudah pergi jumpa tuhannya.. Allahhh :( Jemyyy kenapa tinggal bee? Yee jemy dah tak ade, Sekelip mata awak dah takde. Baru semalam bee rasa baru mula kenal jemyy.. Pergi lah sayang, bee redha even pahit untuk bee telan, walaupn sakitnya untuk bee terima. Lama bee merana sampai bee rasa nak tutup buka pasal jemy.. Terima kasih ya Allah engkau beri aku sahabat sehebat dye selama hampir 10 tahun.. Semoga roh arwah jemy di tempatkan di kalangan org yg beriman. Alfatihah!! 1993 - 2006

Isnin, 21 November 2011

I'm miscarriage :(

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :) Salam november everybody..
The person who knows the test is a great person, not to mention my livelihood..
The story begins like this..
As usual i wake up at 6 am for subuh prayers..Feeling very headache, i consider normal to be a mother..After subuh prayers, i fell asleep. Approximately after 2 hours i woke up, i felt very sick in the stomach of the period to come.In the very heart of panic, since i am used to the clinic doctor gynecologist that i always come before, i call on doctors who inform me sick to the stomach. The doctor asked some blood out to be? i said no. She said that while the blood did not come out of it still survived, InsyaAllah.. She said again me many messages and do active rest and do not forget folic acid to intense uterus..
In 5pm, there was a little blood out of time but it has not hurt my stomach..That time my husband was not at home, he courses.. I did not inform on him becoz me did not want him to worry..After one hour, blood came out much the same kind of period..i call my husband, he hurried back to the house to take me to the clinic..Doctor scan of my stomach empty or clearer my baby is no longer in my tummy..I accept with open heart, its not my livelihood. Allah is better designer. Thank you Allah. Syukur selalu. 

Ahad, 30 Oktober 2011

Semoga Awak Tabah Hajar ^_^

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :)
2 day last, bee dapat kabar dari hajar, dye kate abah dye meninggal dunia ..
INNALILLAH HAWAINNAILAIHIROJIUN :(
Hajar is an old friend in high school, Smk kota bharu, friend since 2009. Sangat rapat.
I'm sorry i cant be with you when you need me.
Saya tahu awak kuat, redhakan arwah abah pergi dengan tenang.
Selalu berdoa semoga arwah abah bahagia di sisi Allah, di tempatkan di kalangan org yg beriman..
Awak masih ada ma, jaga ma seelok - eloknya. Allah tahu awak mampu, sebab tu allah ambik abah dulu sebelum ma. Sayang, saya akan selalu di belakang awak.
Selalu bertabah dan ikhlaskan hati.

Sentiasa bersyukur sebab allah pinjamkan abah untuk awak selama 18 tahun.
I am proud have you as my friend, saya akan tolong selagi saya mampu.
cekalkan hati okay. I pray the best for you.
Alfatihah!!!

Khamis, 13 Oktober 2011

RINDU SEORANG ANAK (cerita benar)

Name aku lia,aku gadis desa..
aku di lahir daripda sbuah kluarga yg cukup meriah..
hidup kami bahagia sampai lah satu saat kehidupan kami bertukar pilu..
ya,allah aku redha ngn smua takdirMu...tabahkanlah aku..
pada usia aku mencecah 16tahun aku kehilangan ayah..seorg ayh yg x dpt di ganty kan dgn ape jua..
ayh tempat kami sekeluarga bergantung..tempat kami berlindung teduh..
kenapa cepat sgt???aku belum lg bersedia atas kehilangan tu,tp apakan daya aku melawan takdir..
aku terima dgn ikhlas pmergian ayh tercinta..
aku slalu berdoa semoga roh ayh di cucuri rahmat...
sebelum ayh pergi,ayh berpesan supaya kami adik beradik tabah dgn setiap dugaan yg dtg..
ayh ckp setiap dugaan yg dtg pasty akn pergi juga...
ayh mahu kami berjaya..ayh mahu kami jejak kaki di menara gading..
ayh mahu kami gapai ijazah di tngan..
ayh x mahu kami hidup susah sepertinya...kami rendu ayh..
ke mana kami pergi smua tanpa seorg ayh..kami beraya tanpa ayh..
kami cemburu tgk org laen ade ayh...hanya air mata pengubat rendu kami pada ayh..
ayh,kami perlukan ayh..mak perlukan ayh...kami mahu ayh kembali...
kami x mampu berdiri tanpa ayh..dunia kami gelap tanpa ayh..
ayh,kami sentiasa doakn yg terbaik untuk ayh kat sana..
ayh,alhamdulillah kami smua dah pn berjaya jejak kaki di menara gading..
ayh,kami puas sbb kami dah buktikan pd ayh..kami puas sbb boleh tunaikn hajat ayh tp
kami sedih bila waktu kami naik pentas ambil segulung ijazah ayh takde..
kami nk hadiahkan pd ayh tp ayh jauh...tp kami bersyukur sbb kami dpt tunaikn hajat ayh..
walaupn ayh takde kat dunia neh...ayh,seriously kami rendukn suara ayh,wajah ayh,gelak tawa ayh.
kami rendu nk peluk ayh..
ayh,skang ayh dah pn ada cucu...nama dia anis,umur dia dah 4 tahun tp anis pn sama nasib dgn lia..
anis takde ayh..ayh,lia lemah bila tgk anis panggil papa dia..ayh,anis masih kecil tp dah pn terasa kehilangan..ayh,lia lemah setiap kali anis tanya mana papa dia...ayh,lia dpt rasa mcm mana rendu nya sorang anak pd ayh nye..anis terlalu kecil untuk faham semua neh..ayh,lia sedih sbb lia perlukan sorang ayh tp kejap je lia dpt rasakan kasih syg sorang ayh skang lia baru nk rasa kasih syg sorang suami tp dia pn dah takde kat dunia neh..ayh,lia sedih setiap kali lia kenangkan nasib lia tp lia redha,pasty ada hikmah di sebalik neh..
lia lemah ayh tp lia cuba untuk berpijak di bumi yg nyata..apa2 pn lia akan tatang anis dgn minyak yg penuh..lia xnak anis sedih dan sunyi mcm lia..
lia tau x mudah untuk pikul tanggungjawab neh tp lia kena bangkit..
ayh,lia bersyukur kerana allah bg lia anis..lia masih ada mak,masih ada adik beradik..
ayh,ayh jgn resau tau..anak2 ayh semua dah besar,semua dah kuat..
anis hadiah yg takde nilai harga nya..anis segalanya bg lia skang,anis ubat bila lia saket..anis permata yg amat berharga ayh..ayh,lia sebenarnya lia masih x percaya ayh dn suami lia dah takde..lia sedih ayh..lia sedih sgt2..hanya anis pengubat lia,lia xtau apa akan jadi kalo anis xde ayh..lia sedih bila anis ckp anis nk jumpa papa dia.satu hari tu lia menangis teresak2 ayh bile lia balik kerja tgk anis tidur ngn gambar papa dia..bila lia nk simpan baju papa anis kat tangan anis,anis selalu berkata nk tggu papa balik pakai baju tu,anis selalu berkata papa pasti akan balik..ayh,lia lemah dgn saat2 tu,lia xnak anis rasa apa yg lia rasa..masa anis pandang jasad papa dia,anis bertanya kenapa anis panggil papa,papa x bukak mata?kenapa papa tidur?bila papa nak bangun??lia sedih ayh,soklan2 semua tu masih ngiang2 di telinga lia..anis hanya kenal papa dia 4 tahun je dan anis x pernah kenal ayb sbagai atuk dia tp lia slalu tnjuk gambar ayh pd anis dan anis selalu bertanya mana atuk??atuk xnak jumpa anis ke??lia sedih ayh..
lia mintak ampun ngn ayh andai lia ada buat salah ngn ayh dulu2..
semoga ayh tenang kat sane ye..ayh tggu kami tau,..
satu hari nanty kita akan jumpa kat sana..
lia rendu ayh..lia syg ayh..lia mintak restu ayh..
rendu lia ialah rendu seorang anak kepada ayh nye !!!!!!

THANK YOU ALLAH - MAHER ZAIN

I was so far from you, yet to me you were always so close. I wandered lost in the dark, I close my eyes. To all the signs you put in my way, i walked everyday. Further and further away from you. Allah brought me home, i thank you with every breath i take. ALHAMDULILLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH . All praise is to ALLAH, All praise is to ALLAH. 

I never thought about all the things you had given to me, i never thanked you once, i was too proud to see the truth and prostrate to you until i took the first step and thats when you opened the doors for me and now ALLAH i realise what i was missing by being far from you. ALHAMDULILLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH .. All praise is to ALLAH, All praise is to ALLAH .. 

ALLAH, i wanna thank you. I wanna thank you for all the things that you have done. You have done for me though all my years i have been lost you guided me from all the ways that were wrong. Indeed you gave me hope, ALLAH i wanna thank you, I wanna thank you for all the things that you have done. I wanna thank you for bringing home. ALHAMDULILLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH. All praise is to ALLAH, All praise is to ALLAH. 



I wanna thank you because of the perfect husband, As for parents who are perfect and the best in the worlds and also because of the grandfather and grandmother were quite generous. I thank you ALLAH for the mommy to be. SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH :)

Pregnant 2week, ALHAMDULILLAH :)

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :)
Hari ni dah 8 bulan usia perkahwinan bee, cepat sangat masa berlalu ..
Rasa baru semalam di ijab kabulkan. Alhamdulillah, syukur di atas nikmat ni ..
Cinta halal sangat indah .. Terima kasih mr.captain sayang ..

Okay back to tajuk entry bee untuk harini, im preggy or not ??
Actually harini dah 2weeks 2day bee delay period, selama b bergelar isteri period tak pernah delay ..
First delay minggu pertama, dah happy sangat ..
Bgtahu encik suami, serius dye siap cakap " Syg tak boleh buat kerja dah, Abg je yg buat semua nnt. Syg kena banyak rest, time to be princess now" Sememangnyaa bee di layani like princess kot before this. Sangat sempurna layanan suamiku. Sangat!!! Even benda blm pasti tp dye dah ckp mcm tu HAHAHA, haaa nampak tak betapa dye teruja .

So pergi lah farmasi, konon - konon nak beli pregnancy test .
Sampai je farmasi, duk dalam kereta hampir 10 minit . Cakap ngn encik suami . Macam nak balik lah, laen kali ajela kita beli . HAHAHA padahal motif kuar malam tu nak pergi beli pregnancy test tula .. Encik suami just buat senyum kambing, So balik lah .. Hehehehe Tiba - tiba encik suami belikan Upt tu .. Punya lah terperanjat, mak aiiii so esok lepas solat subuh tu try lah test, nk ckp punya takut kecewa bee sengaja tinggalkan Upt tu dlm 10 minit baru bee tengok HAHAHA




Bila dah tengok ini hasilnyaaaa, Ya Allah hanya allah yg tahu .. Even just samar - samar but ada double line jugak, then bee bgtahu cousin yg dah kahwin . Dye cakap confirm ada, pergi scan tengok and amek acid folic untuk kuat rahim. Tadi bee pergi klinik, doktor scan tengok, Alhamdulillah pregnant 2week. Alhamdulillah 8 bulan tunggu. 



Assalammualaikum anak mama, welcome to my cute tummy. Mama papa cant wait to see you. Harapan mama semoga baby selamat hingga ke hari kelahiran. ALHAMDULILLAH.
Doktor bagi date appoiment next weeks. Terima kasih ya Allah. Doakan bee dan baby sihat selalu. Insyaallah. Aminn (*-*)


Ahad, 25 September 2011

Just me :)

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :)
Today entry about just me..
My name is Bibi Nabilah Binti Zakaria..
I was born on 2 januari 1993 at friday barakah..
I am the second oldest of four siblings and i am a single princess daughter..
My status married, enough poeple know im happy as well as beloved husband..
He is a caring person, responsible ang gantlemen..
He is a husband careers, meet all my needs. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

My father name is Zakaria bin Ahmad, he is a successful bisnesman..
Very love me alot because i am a single daughter of him. very spoiled with familys..
Love to do hobbies, he is a great dad in the world..
My mother name Asmah binti Abd Rahman, she mama who many say hehehe
She is a very beautiful mother and still young. She firmly but very wonderful people..
Very care for all childrens, very the exemplary mom..
My eldest brother Ahmad Zakirin bin Zakaria name's, he's currently studying in medical costs in Egypt.. Doktor Zakirin to be. im so proud of you.
The third brother Muhamad Nasrullah bin Zakaria, still in school at 12 years old.
Youngest brother Muhamad Azim Farhan bin Zakaria, 10years old..
They both are my little bestfriends, my loyal to their traveling companions wherever i go..

Tokki names Rahmat bin Abdul Rahman, he's was the worlds best grandpa.
For him, me always be he little grandson, always treat me, loving person and very heavy question ties focused. Jamilah binti Mohamad tokma names, she loves to cook, indeed be obese when staying with her HAHAHA :D she was a sporting and very the care peoples..
They were all there will be no replacement..
I love you guys for the rest of my life (^_*)


Sabtu, 24 September 2011

My Dreams (^_^)

Assalammualaikum Sweet Ladies! :)
Today my entry about the dreams. Setiap manusia punya impian..
Begitu jugak ngn bee..Impian bee sgt banyak..Tak terbilang. Just a few things i wanna to story.
First sekali, Opkos bee nak study then kerja.. Dapat beli macam - macam ngn gaji sendiri..
About study, bee nak study luar dari kelantan.. Dapat oversea pun lagi okay..
Even though i am female, i wanna do what men can do..
I guess how independent living without familys inside, even its hard, im sure theres definitely sweet..

Past the conclusion of the learned, i want to work as travel. I like to travel around the worlds..
Bee nak jadi anak perantauan, May ALLAH easy my arrangements..
Nak kerja balas jasa tokki tokma, mama and also abah.. nak mereka bangga dengan bee..

Bee nak buktikan, yang bee boleh berdiri di atas kaki sendiri..
Taknak menyusahkan sapepun, even buat somethings tu tanpa bantuan somebody, hati akan sngat berpuas hati. That my self.. I wanna to handle eveythings my own..
Bee selalu ckp ngn diri sendiri, even kita dah kaya oneDay, bee taknak mewahkan diri..
Manfaat seelok - eloknya hasil titik peluh tersebut.. INSYAALLAH!!

Bee nak jadi wife/cucu/anak dan sewaktu dengannya, yang baik!!
Hopefully my dreams come true.. Ini sajalah entry bee for this entry..
Always bersangka baik, Allah sentiasa ada untuk hamba - hambaNya. Solat 5 waktu jangan di lupa..
BuByeeee :)

Khamis, 22 September 2011

Cinta itu ketawa dan air mata ..

Assalammualaikum ...
I'm back ..
Still hijau dalam dunia blog ..
Surfing blogger itu hobi bee ..
Bee suka menulis, menaip ..
Satu hari nnti bee nk punya novel sendiri ..
Itu impian bee ..
InsyaaAllah .. nak jd sperti penulis terkenal
SURI RYANA .. 
1st novel dye adalah novel maid, novel yg sangat awesome ..
Di trbitkan pada tahun ini ..
I hope that will succeed like her ..
I am so proud ..

Okay back to my entri for now ..
About the cinta itu ketawa dan air mata ..
I just write my own experience based on right .. 
I started right about love that laugh ..

Cinta sngat indah bila us love each other ..
Lebih indah when familys in law can receive good bad couples ..
Although there was a feeling of love for each other, the bleesing of parents is very important ..

Mother in law is like a mother ..
Macam mane pun dye kita tetap kena terima baik buruk nya ..
But in my case, 
My mother in law is a choice of her own heart for my husband ..
So anything what i do
I remain not good in her eyes ..
I always try to get compelling her but i will push the edge .. 

In life, pahit harus ada untuk compeletkan sesebuah relationships..
People say CABARAN!
Sentiasalah memupuk kemanisan dalam apa jua situasi sekalipn..
Tambah gula okay..
Always tambah, ingat tau GULA! Bukan garam or blackpaper, apalagi cili boo..
Hopefully Uolls happy - happy selalu :)

Isnin, 19 September 2011

TERPAKSA DELETE POST LAMA

Assalammualaikum Sweet Ladies!
Now I am in limbo, the reason is no one is always take care of things people..
Bee terpaksa delete post - post yang bagi bee terlalu personal..
Sometimes people who are close to us cant believe..
I never stir life anyone so please respect me..

So bee buat keputusan banyak post - post yang personal bee delete..
Now all my entry just fo fun..
Tak lupa jugak, banyak follow yang bee block..
SORRY not my intention but i think that person is always busyBody..

All entry tahun 2010, 2012 & 2014 semua bee dah delete ..
Entry yg sangat personal pada tahun 2011 pun hampir 13 post bee trpaksa delete
coz for me, ia sngat personal dan di sbbkan entry tula
orang mandai2 bukak cerita tntang diri bee
Awk tu mak ayah sy ke?
Kan block, terasa hati plak ..
Betul lah kata orang tua - tua ..
Bahagia jangan terlalu tunjuk, sebab bkn semua org suka tengok kita bahagia ..

IF YOU WANT TO LEARN ABOUT HAPPY, NEVER SMELL WITH ANOTHERS ='=

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BuByeeee :)

Jumaat, 16 September 2011

Dugaan mendewasakan ku ..

Assalammualaikum sweet ladies! :)
Manusia dengan dugaan tak boleh di pisahkan ..
Tokki selalu pesan, kita hidup jangan mengeluh ..
Nak capai kesenangan, jgn sesekali menyusahkan hidup org lain ..
Apapun terjadi harus selalu positive ..
Penatnya tidak terkata bila bee cuba untuk bersabar ngn kerenah mereka ..

Ye kami memang tidak setaraf ..
In a rank property relationship does not guarantee the right of happiness ..
Trying for i chance to proof right i was able to be the best for you guys ..
i love your child right means i also love close your child family ..
I am aware of who i am ..
I am just ordinary human inadequate ..

I try be positive always ..
orang kate jika tiada dugaan tiada makna lah hidup seseorang itu ..
Adat manusia akan selalu tak senang duduk bila tengok kita senang ..
Akan selalu ketawa bila kita susah ..
Dugaan mendewasakan diriku.
Happy always all (O_*)

Khamis, 15 September 2011

ENOUGH PEOPLE KNOW I BELONG

Assalammualaikum Sweet Ladies! :)
Entry for fun, dont be a great stalk ..
Manusia memang tak suka tengok kita bahagia ..
Itu adat. Enough people know i belong ..
You all no need to know who my husband ..
Enough you all know he is a husband.
A caring husband and responsible ..

My parents very helpful, humble person ..
My grandpa and grandma never had a vendetta against our people love to envy with family ..
They are so so so superB ..
When i fell and woke up ..
When i hard and happy, just my own ..
i never troublesome person ..
Be women should always strong
to face it for the sake of people who she love ..
Dont care what people say ..

Allah tak suka orang yg busuk hati ..
Setiap rezeki ada bahagian masing - masing ..
Antara cepat dan lambat ..
They is always enough work for us relaxed and happy ..
Happy always all (<,>)